My head's all over the place though. What with balancing schoolwork and a social life, I literally have no time for myself.
However, rest assured that I haven't forgotten you my faithful readers - here I assume you actually do exist - and this is why I am here.
I have great news to report.
I saw Jav.
(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I hadn't seen this guy since 2013. Twenty fucking thirteen. And on the night of Feb 11, I got a text saying "BTW I'm at UWI."
Fam, I was about to go to sleep eh. I got the hell up and went to see my best friend.
I'm still happy about that. Still. I mean, he's my best friend. Of course I'd be a damned sight ecstatic.
Even though I saw him only twice in the eleven-day period he was here for....I saw him.
That's the bright spot in my life right now. Them and the Creed. I swear if it wasn't for those guys I'd have gone batshit cray cray loooonnnngggggg ago, what with making the difficult decisions I've been making since year start, and changing dynamics in certain of my friendships, and having to readjust my standards for certain things.
I don't dislike myself. (A snarky inner voice is saying to me "not yet"; fuck you, snarky inner voice.") I may not be peak emotionally,but I'm grateful that I can look myself in the eyes in a mirror and say "Nigga we gon be all right."
me.
